How in the world did I get HERE?!?!? I've only got three more months until my due date and I have to mentally focus on not FREAKING out!!! ON multiple levels I feel so completely unprepared for everything that will be happening to our lives in the near future. Ammon and I still haven't found consistent work, although my sweety has gotten a few odd jobs here and there. When I got pregnant, we had a weekly income of over $1500... now with unemployment we get about half of that a MONTH. It's a miracle that we have been able to survive THIS long, and we may have to keep stretching things for an inexplicable more amount of time!! Bringing a baby into the world is scary enough, but having no idea about where we will be living or if and where we will get our next paycheck really adds to the pressure. Anyone who says they just want to wait until they are financially ready to have a baby just needs to take a look at our story and have a good laugh!
But...then again, my wonderful husband and I have a reason to get up in the morning and smile!! We constantly have something to work for and look forward to every day. This outlet of our future baby has helped to strengthen us as friends and as a couple that would be impossible otherwise. When talking to someone the other day about our plight, he made the comment, "Well, at least you get to spend a lot of time together!" and I felt like rolling my eyes and saying, "Well at least you have a job!!!" BUT I know there are a lot of couples that don't have the opportunities we've had to share this pregnancy together, and I know I have been buouyed up by Ammon's strength and humor. I don't know if our situation is making things easier or harder for us, but hopefully it's at least making us a little better.
